Maybe

She said it’s over..

I wasn’t sure I was dreaming, or..

My mind was playing tricks on me, or..

It was just the plain, obvious truth..

Isn’t that what we do..

We deny our problems, cling to hope like little kids cling to their mothers when they’re scared..

But scared is an understatement in my case..

I was afraid, terrified, petrified I was about to lose something I could never find..

She said it’s over..

I didn’t understand at first..

I lost the common – sense I use so commonly and I abandoned all reason when I asked “what do you mean?”

I wanted to figure out this anomaly..

She said it’s over..

I was so overwhelmed I felt drowned..

Still didn’t understand what she meant..

It was like a code I couldn’t decipher..

Her words shattered my world..

She was the sun at the center of my universe..

She said she collapsed under the pressure of our differences..

And all there’s left is an emotional draining black hole causing us to collide..

Sucking all of our joy..

all of our good, sweet memories and our whole conscience in it..

I became paralyzed..

My only focus was on that tear that fell down from her face when she said these words..

It was like a warrior’s silenced scream when he’s being stabbed by the sharpest sword..

She said it’s over..

And suddenly anything turned black around me..

My feelings were a mix of sadness, anger, denial, frustration and despair..

It didn’t seem fair to me to hear such thing..

It didn’t seem fair that I bound my own existence to another one’s..

And suddenly I find it all gone..

Well, not suddenly but like I said I'm in denial..

I'm in denial and I refuse this reality..

I don’t understand what your talking about neither what your saying..

So your gonna have to explain to me in all languages..

Maybe in another one I could hear u say I still have hope and I'm gonna stay..

She said it’s over...

Maybe she does mean it..

Maybe it is all gone..

Maybe it is the end..

Maybe it is all over..

or maybe it is a new start..

maybe…