Melissa,
My catalyst.
My lack of strength,
I deem you Melissa –
For the one who brought me to this party,
Then disappeared
And left me here alone.
How did I let you become so important
To allow myself to choose this,
To turn to something I'd never –
Something I'd always viewed with disgust?
And even still,
It's disgusting
And dirty
And beneath me.
And now I am what I disgust.
I let it seep in,
And now it's in my skin,
Under my skin
It got in.
