Back 2 Square 1

I need to get it out
Its causing tension
A dark secret
A cold confession
Time to make a choice
to live or die
Scared of both
And don't know why
Life straight ahead
But death is by my side ...
Nervousness from fear
I really can't decide
Success is in my sight
But failure wins the fight
I'm tired of losing
Being stuck in this delusion
Monsters on my mind
But I'm trying to confuse him
Life is just a circle
Back to square one
devil has a hold on me
But won't shoot me the fair one...