Lonely as I've ever been,
I crave the Nirvana,
That sits right between reality,
And the dark recesses of my mind.
That floating weightlessness,
That feeling of nothingness,
That blackened dustiness.
Lonely as I've ever been,
I spend my day seething with rage,
Growing farther and farther from compassion,
My rolling eyeballs breaking in their sockets.
That despised ugliness,
Trepidatious,
Dangerousness,
Lonely as I've ever been,
I sit in the dark and let myself break,
Tainted by homesick lovesongs,
And half-lived dreams, and a half felt life,
The uncertainty,
That's dwelling in me,
Makes me search desperately,
For that Nirvana.
Lonely as I've ever been.
