I Don't blame you!

I DON'T BLAME YOU! I don't blame you for my past, but I have built up a wall because of it. It's hard to see one man when theirs a lot of em coming with the same words and the same bullshit. I don't blame you for my pain for the physical and the emotional damage and the reason I look at you the same! I don't blame you, but I still hold this pain. It's gone take God him self to help me change! I wanna love, but I'm scared of it. Mind spinning like the world in slow motion cause I long for it. Confused in this world, but i'll stand alone in it. I don't blame you i'm just not ready for it. Every time i turn on the radio it describes my body and how it's suppose to look. How a man see a ass and he gotta look! How a man see a woman as a hoe or a bitch; and see her body sexually! I'm suppose to look at you like that ain't me but the world see everything sexually! I don't blame you that a woman feel the need to change to be connected emotionally, because the only attachment she see is him using her body sexually! I don't blame you that some men judge with their eye's and not their heart; tearing down their soulmate and leaving them apart. Tearing them down and leaving them at a new start. I don't blame you, but this world gave me a change of heart! My hard outer core, my atomic attitude, and unjustly ways ; I can't help this world made you a slave. I don't blame you, but you capable of doing anything you can, and for that a man gone be a man! #joyprox #2deepforbasicminds #trustissues #idontblameyou