We had the real thing
But threw it away for its duplicate.
We diluted it with complaisance
Turning sweet kisses bitter
I would see you and forget to miss you,
Butterflies quickly turn into regret.
But I promise I love you
I found love with you
And as I cling to love you cling to me
Having it;
I could no longer be satisfied with the promise you were holding on to.
And with my heart being mocked by every tear that dropped
I question what I have left.
And get struck by the knees by lightning
To remember I never asked for your permission
So with my hands clenching in the sand
I ask for your forgiveness.
I am truly sorry for the pain
I really thought we found love.
I'm sorry I couldn't see you crying with your eyes all red,
As I turned away with my expectations half fed.
Forgive my zealousness it was clouded by immaturity.
I wanted the truth
But instead found the divine reason for it.
Not knowing what to do with it
I lost it.
I was looking for laughter,
But couldn't see you sad.
I wanted trust,
But disappointed you with all my lusts.
I was happy with where we were,
But never thought to ask if you were too.
I know this apology will never get to you
but every time i think about you it gets to me.
Forgive me
for not loving you.
