past

his words are only words
“miss you” so vague distant impersonal

the one from the past his words are more
“so many beautiful pictures of you
makes me smile and makes me so damn sad at the same time”


his emails are only of himself
I can’t find “us” anywhere in them

the one from the past, his emails
always have hope of “us”
hope lingering in a distant darkness
almost in reach


he says “I”
he says “Seattle”

the one from the past, he says “hope you’re doing amazing”
he says “if you’re ever passing back this way”


they say “that wasn’t love”
and I believed them then
but are they right?

he says “sometimes I think about you in Seattle
the one from the past, he says “always in my thoughts”
which one?