I feel myself sigh a very heavy sigh
A sigh so heavy I may just collapse under it
and faint
My tainted heart is pounding my stomach churning--turning?
I'm uneasy--quite queasy
Melancholic cold-blooded and alone
The phone that never rings
The post that never comes
How I detest this life of mine
I no longer want to rhyme
For I feel like I am going to cry
My insides are in turmoil
My outsides are about the same
Am I just another grain of sand that cannot be saved
from the pitiful wave?
Oh Edgar, I feel quite the same
If only I weren't a coward
afraid to take my own life away
Oh the shame!
I would've ended this a long time ago
I would've saved myself from
Feeling forever alone
The misery of my existence
The dull lull I live in
Where nothing ever changes
And everything stays the same
I should've done myself a favor
and sentenced myself
To be sedated
In an eternal slumber
I could've escaped all this
But I was too stubborn to see
My Life--Life for me
was never an exciting life to lead
There is no mystery
There was never any mystique
There is only misery
You either know or ignore
How pathetic!
As a human being
I am trying my best to ignore
But instead of ignoring I sigh
A sigh so heavy
I can almost--almost just
die
