I'm lonely
surrounded by people and lonely
what is this?
am I insane?
I'm never lonely
thirsty for talk
I want someone to talk to me
talking lays you open
what's wrong with me?
I don't like to talk
wanting to be trusted
but I don't trust
how can I ask for something I don't give?
I won't ask
everyone's entitled to their secrets anyway
just like me...
and this is the path I chose
a desire to bond
to connect with another, emotionally
but I hold fast to my code
which forbids it
Getting too close is how you get hurt
I must watch those who say they are my friends
this is the path I have chosen
I'm hurting
beginning to notice the pain from my wounds
but how can that be?
I'm numb
I'm cold
maybe I'm thawing
no... please
don't summon me out of my icy refuge
the weak
those who feel
they hurt
those who talk, those who trust
mortally wounded
yet they can not escape the need
addicted to socialization
and they're dying
We're all dying
but they agonize
and I go numbly...
peacefully...
...This is the path I choose
07-A.D. 2004
revised 11-17-A.D.2005
