Purge

The time has come the time is now. Nowhere to go no idea how the earth spins and the clouds drop and I can only hope that my heart won’t stop. This spinning and pulling and tearing inside it burns and it hurts and it rips me open wide. And I can’t hide my hurt and I can’t stop the pain because I don’t know if I will see you again. I don’t want to say bye and I don’t want to go but I don’t have a choice I got to TRY to grow. And if I don’t make it back just hope I survive because I’ve been living on hope surrounded by lies. My faith has wavered and I’m struggling now I won’t fail again cause I’m failing now. I thought I’d have more, something to show, but here I am just dying to grow.