Sombre Revelations

I listen in to the acoustic sound of a still night And hear the beating emptiness lulling me To end it all with a rope and a chair and be content With the angels having to feel no pain no more. Every time I tread beside a road I get this feeling To throw myself at the fastest moving car, End it all for once and stop being a burden among My neighbours and the community at large. I have died a long time ago in another century Watched my spirit as it parted my body to heaven, I see people shedding a smile and wonder serenely How it is like to feel that seemingly nice emotion. There is a dark place in my heart filled with cold Permeating into my soul weaving only self-hatred.