I've got to let you go, cause all you've done is cause me pain
Whenever I found sunshine, you always made it rain.
I chose to call you mother, because you gave me life,
The beatings no longer hurt, but the words still cut like a knife.
I did everything I could to make you care for me,
A child despised by his mom should never have to be.
I don't know what I did to make you feel this way,
You were miserable with yourself & for that you made me pay.
I always ran to you, for comfort, love and care,
You showed me no affection, the feelings just weren't there.
The love I had for you has now turned into hate,
I always wanted to confront you, now you're gone and it's too late.
When you told me I was no good, and I would never be,
I set out to destroy myself and had years of misery.
It's real hard not to blame you, I didn't ask to be born,
The bond we should have had by you was sadly torn.
I want so much to forgive you, so I can finally be free,
I'm letting go of the power, you once had over me.
It's time to let it rest, the sickness that lives in my soul,
I'm no longer your victim, you no longer have control.
I'll pray for your spirit and ask God to let you rest,
The guilt and shame I had, no longer weighs upon my chest.
This is my way of moving on and I refuse to cry,
Your daughter Connie Jo, is finally saying goodbye.
