before i was dead

I fell deep
I couldn't weep
I felt myself drown
because I broke down

I needed a hand to reach
But all they did was preach
''Be strong'' they said
But all I wanted was to get in my bed

I lost control as my life flashed by
So I finally wrote my goodbyes
Many good words they spoke about me
with most I didn't agree
After they cleaned what had dripped on the floor
I couldn't help but think
Why didn't you tell me before?