Whether you think you can or can’t You’re always right.
I think it means you can do what ever you want when you want how you want. Or you can do what you never thought was possible.
Read that the other day I believe it‘s true.
With those words I think of you.
It makes me blue, it certainly does.
Wish you knew how it really was.
Well it’s 2 o’clock on Sunday.
This hasn’t been a fun day.
Fathers Day 2010.
Miss that man, I miss his men.
I baked a cake because that’s what I do.
Disgusted to give it to someone not you.
Sitting home wondering why no sleep?
Mostly afraid of missing the beep.
Mad at the world, not leaving the house.
I’ve yelled at everything including a mouse.
Sitting here guilty for a smoke you can’t .
Again, again I cry and I pant.
Mother sells them catching emphysema.
I continue to contribute to my own leukemia.
Who’d have thought I‘d turn to that, you know?
But this world is insane, where else to go?
Have been doing it since LA.
Lately $6.00 packs a day.
Teeth are yellow but none fell out.
Crooked and ugly I silently pout.
Can’t do the dentist, no one to hold my hand.
I don’t understand why I hate it. I don’t understand.
But we are going there, I hope you know.
Or 1 big fit you’ll see me throw.
That bad tooth in your mouth, we’re pulling it out.
Don’t care how big you are, or how stout.
Since you have been away,
I’ve cried 6 times a day.
I have kissed 2 boys that weren’t my stud.
Each single one has been a dud.
Planned a trip with 1 other.
Caused a fight with another.
Made 4 people cry 2 days in a row.
Now where the hell am I supposed to go?
That was all in a weekend.
When’s it gonna freaking end?
I’ve been drunk at least 6 times.
Oinked up probably 3 big lines.
None of this helped my cause.
No thrill anymore in breaking laws.
Wasn’t sure where home was, took me a while.
Not sure how my car isn’t 1 big pile.
Stupid beast is down at the shop.
I’d rather of helped you get back on top.
Got offered my old job back.
The now is way off track.
Cant keep up this zip line current.
Lost a wheel cover nearly got warrant.
5 hour energy shot kept me up 4 days.
Ate a few things attempting to change my ways.
Coffee makes me nice.
Keep running out of ice.
Any kind of pill,
Makes us both downright ill.
Green black & white tea is for the bees.
Sick how you make me week in the knees.
You break my heart.
It just will not start!
No matter how hard I try.
Day after day I continue to cry...
Why you do the things you do, some I truly understand.
But your not too big to spank, you want the right or left hand?
You’ve got a DUI and were not drunk.
Our government is a stinking skunk.
But something is wrong, and that’s ok.
One of these days we’re just gonna play.
We’re gonna get over this rough bout.
Gonna sit on a boat and catch us a trout.
Your needles & guns have once been in my trunk.
Wildly drawn to both, ain’t that a funk?
Target practice I have things to shoot.
Tore down my own walls with your old boot.
4 things pierced thinking of another.
1 tat left don’t dare tell mother.
Angus Young may as well be my brother.
On your butt, only seen by a lovers hover.
That tat shall go.
Where things don’t flow.
Don’t let them poke you. Don’t poke yourself.
It’s bad for you and ruining your health.
Don’t direct it inward.
Don’t be a selfish terd.
Blamings wrong & detrimentally bad.
Makes me so freaking mad.
What’s said is done, take some responsibility.
Like it or not people care for you, we are not a utility.
This didn’t happen overnight.
I WILL NOT hand you over without a fight.
It’s going to take time but there is a fix.
We’ll put our heads together to find the right mix.
Sorry for myself and sorry for you.
This problem is mine and yours too.
By now you must know it’s true.
Both of us are way too blue
Please don’t whine.
Your heads like mine.
Few things loose.
Looser than a goose.
Until it tightens I’ll run with you.
Might even take a lifetime or two.
We have a mess.
A mess we caress.
In the rarest form.
Slicker than a worm.
I can help you.
If you allow me to.
All Evil Conival.
Good versus evil.
Not doing well.
Here in hell.
Don‘t ring that bell.
No need to dwell.
We’ll get through this;
Flaming magnificent abyss.
Day by day we’ll go on.
Come on, this isn‘t a con.
I can’t wait long,
It’s way too wrong.
There may not be another chance.
Without you, I will not dance.
As long as I have you.
I’ll be there too.
Not a desire not even weed.
Tried that too, didn’t do the deed.
Nothing you ingest will ever work.
There is no lid, there is no cork.
Could it be the skitzo or bipolar?
When things go wrong it goes solar.
It’s been too long don’t you think?
This world isn’t gray or red it’s pink.
We’ll get through this with or without meds.
We’ll fight to the end no matter how many beds.
You said long ago “always follow head or heart“
I live by that advice, I thought it was smart.
I’ve tried all that stuff you do.
Blink once, sign twice it’s still all true.
I don’t know why we need to self medicate.
What’s this I here about fools who meditate?
That sure sounds nicer
You’d be the wiser.
These chemicals, all these things we reach for..
They run out, don’t work & then there are no more.
Some days all you need is a hug.
Sometimes you need something to slug.
Sometimes you just need cheese pizza.
Other times you need whips, chains and a girl named Lisa.
But in the end you wind up back to square one.
You wake up late and the damage is already done.
Maybe I’m wrong, and you do it for different reasons.
All I know is there’s too many seasons.
All boy’s get jealous I’ll always care for you more.
They’re right about that, I’ve been on tour.
That wild ride hasn’t stopped.
Away away I’ve tried and flopped.
Wished you’d of went when it was time to go.
I really think it was years ago.
Sorry I didn’t know it back then.
But with a do over, I’d begin again.
You said lets stay.
I tried to pave the way…
With you in mind I bought this place.
But you just laughed right in my face.
I thought busy you’d be out of trouble.
But you did it again you popped my bubble.
I stayed this place that isn’t home.
You don’t even pick up the phone.
Wished you’d have gone when I said it’s time.
This wasn’t the plan. I feel like slime.
You’re a wild animal but you don’t belong in a cage.
But tell me please what I’ve done? Why all the rage?
I am shackled still like in LA.
But there you came and saved the day.
I needed that then as much as now.
I’ll help you too, I’ll find out how.
No answer here, no answers there.
By God I’ve looked everywhere!
Quicksand sinking, my hands are tied.
Dad don’t you know? I’ve tried, I tried.
We don’t know what to do anymore.
Rock bottom’s here, where the hells the floor?
I’ve begged I’ve pleaded, cried and asked.
You said there’s no problem, walked right on passed.
Does not matter what it isn’t or is.
We’ll figure it out, it’ll be a whiz
I know it’s not drinking, driving or stealing.
Things keep following, when you aren’t even dealing.
I don’t see it,
If I did-it’d be hit.
I’m not saying it is not true.
Something is definitely happening to you.
But bothering you they’ll wind up dead.
I don’t care why or how or if it’s in your head.
Don’t care if it’s bugs.
Don’t care if it’s thugs or drugs.
You are smart and fun, I don’t think you are crazy.
The hardest working person I know, you’re not lazy.
I’ll go to the end of the Earth.
You’ll never sit in a jar on my hearth.
That night you left I though you were gone.
The things I worried about when on and on.
I prayed to a power I wasn’t certain existed.
Through the night my rolling gut persisted.
Things were horrific, nothing left unsifted
When you were found safe, my fear was lifted.
Whatever found you, it must’ve had wings.
Someone please take care of these things!
I hate the fact that you’re in jail.
Would rather stand out in the hail.
I wonder if they are nice or feed you right?
It’s a bumpy ride, we got to hang on tight.
We see what’s happening, it’s not you.
We’ve tried everything and failed that too
Don’t you know it’s ok to ask for help.
Dad we’re here, you don’t have to yelp!
Anything to make it stop
Has to soon, we’re all gonna pop!
Stopped it’s not, but we got it slowed
Please think in there before you corrode!
We aren’t doing this to be mean.
With out you here, there is no team!
I know you hate us and are furious.
But we can’t watch & do nothing I’m serious!
You tell me always trust my gut.
Whether on top the world or in a rut.
This is what it said, so that’s what we did.
We had to stop you, before you ran and hid.
Whatever is getting to you has you going in a circle.
But I’m the fool for trying to help? I fell like Steve Urckle!
They had to dad, there was no choice.
We tried other things, but you heard no voice!
We aren’t trying to run your life…
That’s a job left for a wife.
We’re not trying to kick you while your down.
We plan to fight this force, round after round!
We just want to help, we want you back.
Don’t leave me here, on the wrong side of the track!
Please anything.. whatever it takes…
I’ll give and give, I have no brakes!
Yes we have our problems, and are broken too.
But finding the pieces start with you!
It’s ok, we all make big mistakes.
In life that’s what playing the game takes.
It’s taken me a while to get this in the mail.
As long as it seems to take, faster it could sail.
So now the next holiday is here.
But you’er not, and I’m still sad, plum full of fear.
It’s independence day, what we all stand for.
With you in there, I feel rotten to the core!
Freedom from this, I promise soon you’ll have that.
Because you belong here, with a place to hang your hat.
I know it’s hard to believe, but Dad your not alone.
You’ll always have your family, friends and a home.
The 4th is here, it has come.
But you’re not well and I’m not dumb.
I want you out, I want to hear your laugh.
I’ll find you what you need, I’ll hire a staff.
I can’t stop you from what you want or what you do.
All I can do is sit here sadly and want better for you.
You used to buy me the biggest fireworks money could buy.
Your lost out there, but I’m gonna light 1 for you, & continue to try.
As I watch the colors explode, gonna beg whatever’s out there to help us.
I’m going to blow things up until we go back to the way it was.
Not tomorrow, it’s never or now!
Get your fork. I’ll make kung poa!
The sun is still going to shine on my *ss.
If it doesn’t on yours too, I’ll pass gas!
You won’t let me visit so I went to court.
It’s down right becoming a full time sport.
The docket time was FUBARed, so ridiculously jaded.
But is it because we came, or you didn’t see us we’re hated?
By now surely you must know how much we care?
Don’t say we don’t. Don’t you dare!
You used to sing me songs like these.
Dad I’m begging you-end this please!
Tell me what you need from me.
Tell us what you need from we.
We’ll be here until the very end.
Nothing will stop us not even the wind.
Take my hand, you just have to trust.
I won’t let anything hurt you, no rain, nor gust.
I’m miss you lot’s, dear dad, dear friend.
My love to you, I’ll always send.
