Foolishness.
I thought you would take my breathe away each time we embrace thought we would feel high up in the stars looking down on everything that hates but quite honestly its more of a battle than anything. Each time we take a step forward reality sets in and pushes us back further. Not to say I'm giving up, just wondering if the struggle ever stops..we use it as motivation, but sometimes I just begin to question.
The possibility that this will all lead to our destruction, its just to hard to bear what the future might force us in.
I take a deep breathe and analyze my position, think about what I really want and if I even want to bring it to your attention.
the hardest part of it all is to admit that sometimes I just want to give in, sometimes I want to stop fighting with the world and rest my shoulders for a little bit.
God knows I'm not strong, I'm only as strong as the straight face I can keep..
I know its dangerous for me to admit, but I have to be honest..I want to breathe, and just not care for a little bit.
But I can never give in, and I can never give up..as long as your by my side struggling just as I am, I'm sticking thru for you..for me..for my sanity.
Who knows if this is love, is it always this hard?
When you have something so sublime, aren't you afraid that it'll cost?
Life needs a balance, when there's highs, there's bound to be a low, how can I have the assurance you'll be there thru both?
I always say, just let God control..but its hard to let go of this death grip I hold..
There's always a struggle and obstacle to go..
I'm just anticipating the day I realize what this is all for.
