For Evan. My Inspiration.
Chaos.
Most avoid it but often times you have to run into it head on in order to find true happiness. Within the chaos of life are bright shining rays of light which encompass the most important things this world has to offer. Within chaos are the most mystically magical feelings on this planet. The feelings that cannot be fathomed or described with words. Only felt and contained within our souls for us to feel every second of everyday. That feeling, those emoitions evoked by those feelings, and all of the millions of the tiny little fragments of life that have never seemed to find a way to come together, finally like a perfect puzzle, make you complete.
Love. Is the most beautiful chaos there is. Stepping into the warm inviting rays of this entity after the long hard battle that is typical of a chaotic setting, your mind, body, and soul fall into a sea of emotions filled with all the meanings of your life. Suddenly, you can catch those oh so desired glimpses into your future, and with such conviction you anticipate the day in which that particular vision will become a reality.
Security. Suddenly you feel okay, like everything will be alright. You let your life be, and go with your instincts. You pay attention to all the writings on the wall, including the finest of the fine print, and you trust that the story is and will always be beautiful.
Happiness. Your heart is the strongest its felt in years, withstanding all of the emotions that wash over it as you think about him every second, of every second, of everyday. So much so that it aches…so good…within the cavities of your body. Nothing can be done without you thinking of the reason why you can’t do what you are trying to do. You find joy in the tinest implements of life, because they remind you of him.
Being able to give your heart to somebody willingly and earnestly, with the knowledge that they would never, ever do anything to harm you, is an infinitly better feeling than keeping it guarded within that hard shell it had been encased in for so long.
When your eyes fall into eachother’s so often, but no matter where you are, you both get lost in the sleu of emotions spilling over with the love they create. When you communicate without speaking, or seeing one another, Simply feeling what the other is thinking and reacting to it before they can say a word…..
…A connection that is unbreakable, like a cast iron sword it slices through adversity as one cohesive system working together to ensure happiness in all of its counter parts.
Continued excitement over the fact that you always end feeling ways that you never thought or imagined you could feel before.
Appreciation. Of the magnitude of the amazing entity that is the universe. and. acknowledgment that the universe plays a part in the order of it all.
The realization that the two of you are meant to be together on every scale imagineable
THAT’S. When you know you love him.
