In loving memory..
R.I.P. Grammy
5.7.35 – 2.26.10
Forever in our hearts.
“It’s too late to apologize”
but I’m sorry.
I’m sorry for all the times I wasn’t there
for all the times I didn’t call.
You’d have been there if I took a fall.
But I was always too ‘busy’, you see;
yet you never stopped loving me.
“I’m so sorry, I’m so so sorry”,
resounded in my head.
That Friday morning, I got the call
as I rose up out of bed.
“Grammy passed this morning,
she went in her sleep,”
I prayed to God it wasn’t true,
this pain so dark and deep.
I thought I’d had forever,
but now “forever” had come to an end;
I’ll give all my loving to Heaven,
I promise, every kiss, I’ll send.
As I dropped the phone, staring,
I just kept asking, “Why-”
It wasn’t supposed to end
without me saying goodbye.
I remember summers, swinging,
I remember the phone ringing.
I’d answer just to hear your voice;
God knows I’d give anything
just to hear it one last time.
I knew you hadn’t been doing well,
the hospital you had claimed.
I knew you hated it there, so much,
but the nurses, they knew you by name.
I wish I could have seen you,
if only for one more day.
Although I know you’re better off up there,
God himself couldn’t take away this pain.
So I went to see you today, Grammy;
I tried to be so strong.
It wasn’t until I stood in front of the casket
that I wondered what went wrong.
The lifeless body in front of me
no longer held your soul;
your lips, upturned, as if attempting to smile;
the face, it was not the same.
The shell of you was not you at all –
I remembered your better days.
As I stood there, looking at you,
grasping my sister’s own hand,
everything became suddenly blurred…
It was then I did understand;
that He needed you more than we did,
you’d taken your ride in life.
Though we’re all left with holes in our hearts,
your paradise is worth all our strife.
You deserve it more than anyone,
I hope you’re walking hand in hand.
With the Father, Son, and the Holy Ghost,
with your daughter and your man.
I know you’re looking down on us,
I know you want for us not to mourn.
But it will be awhile before our sun is back,
before genuine smiles are reborn.
You lived a full life here on Earth, Grammy,
though you really have yet to live.
You’re just now beginning
a brand new life up there,
and now it’s our turn to give.
Let us honor you,
for the rest of our lives,
in everything we do.
Because although we can’t be up there with you,
you’re in every one’s heart, it’s true.
I’ll see you in every sunrise,
every sunset and every moon.
And though I have my life yet to live,
I know I will see you soon.
But I wish more than anything
I could have said to you, “Goodbye.
I’ll love you more than you’ll ever know.”
And I know that you’d have said the same,
it was just your time to go.
You always think you have forever
until that fateful day.
You think you have... forever
until it’s already too late.
