Closed Doors

I was unsure; I wanted to wait.
I needed more time but now it's too late.
I loved your company your adoration my delight
But now it's your warmth haunting in the still of the night.
Too weak to love you fully fearlessly without a care
Robbing myself of the depth of dedication firmly rooted there.
I greedily gobbled your offerings, your all, your heart and soul
No integrity left, under the pressure I had to fold.
No faithfulness in me, I had to watch you walk away
Drowning the doubts that I would live to regret this day,
A day forever burned in the crevices of my mind
When blinded by doubt I stepped down from my throne
Relinquishing all that was mine.

In time your fertile heart will bloom again
Love, honesty, dedication all harvested by a better man.
In time the small life sparked only by my lust
Will be given into another's care and trust.
With all my misgivings I've come to understand
A door once firmly shut, will never open up again.